General Information »   32 Mgs A Day SUBOXONE 5 Yrs, No SEX DRIVE HELP!

ok, I started smoking heroin in the 80s started shooting in the 90s and found methadone in 1999, was on 120mgs of Methadone for many years, switched from juice to wafers and then was one of the 1st clients in Oregon to start Buprenorphine treatment. Lowered my Methadone way down and switched over with Dr supervision. Felt really good, and have stayed at taking 2 8mgs in the morning and 2 8mgs at night. My doctor was in charge of the methadone clnic in Salem and he followed my progress into Suboxone treatment. If its not broke, dont fix it, he would say.
Well its been about 5 years on Suboxone and I feel like I am flatline with life, I am here but not really excited about much anymore. My wife is concerned because my 'drive' around intimacy has really gone downhill. I also have been on Effexer XR for depression, (about 5 months) I am ready for a change and although it scares me to think about quitting suboxone I have read some success stories about tapering down. Does anyone have any advice to help with this, I really am super sensitive to being even a few hours off schedule, I will start to perspire and get anxious if I am late in taking my dose. I must say that suboxone is WAAAY better than where I was, I needed 100 bucks of Tar a day to feel normal, I had Overdosed, infections, shared needles, abscess, emergency rooms and probably 20 treatments over the years. Nothing ever worked, but since I started methadone I have stayed away from heroin and coke. I am 2 years clean from medical marijuana, a car accident got me the card, but I came to realize I was healed and did not need the prescription any longer. I am active with homeless outreach, I lead a celebrate recovery meeting, I mentor men at Union Gospel Mission and believe my spiritual program is what keeps me clean. I also know that I have a history of relapse when I start getting antsy for change, so tapering the dose scares me also. My marriage is so important though, I want my wife to feel like I am willing to try anything to get some help here. Sorry to ramble, was up very late and am super tired. Thanks for any advice sincerely OFFSMACK